My Fantasy Life

 As you go about your daily routines, with all the deadlines and must-dos and rushing about, have you ever stopped to think about what your fantasy of a perfect life would be?

In my fantasy life... there would of course be Papa Bear, and my children... and my furkids.

In my fantasy life... I would get up early to enjoy the sunrise, nap in the afternoons, and go to bed late.  No clocks would be allowed.

In my fantasy life... I would never wear restrictive clothing or confining undergarments, I would wear kaftans when inside, and comfy long dresses and sandals when I went out.

In my fantasy life... I would live so near the ocean that I could watch every sunrise and sunset, and sink my toes in the wet sand whenever I felt like it.

In my fantasy life... the weather would be 75 degrees all year round with a gentle breeze, never hot or cold or blustery. 

In my fantasy life... I would operate a sanctuary for senior cats that have no families.  It would be generously funded by an anonymous wealthy patron and lover of cats.

In my fantasy life... I would live with Papa Bear in a tiny but beautiful house with lots of windows, and a bedroom ceiling that opened up at night so that we could sleep underneath the stars. 

In my fantasy life... my house would be kept sparkling clean by well-paid staff who also prepared our meals and did our laundry.

In my fantasy life... all the food would be healthy and excellent, and all excess body weight would disappear.  I would be strong and flexible and have endless energy.

In my fantasy life... my grown children would live close by where we could enjoy each other's company whenever we wanted, and share meals on Sundays.

In my fantasy life... I would have all the time I wanted to write, and read, and interact with fellow bloggers.  I would have time to write Papa Bear's biography, and maybe even my own.

In my fantasy life... the Internet connection would be lightning fast and uninterrupted no matter how many devices were in use, and it would be free.

In my fantasy life... I would pick up the craft projects I never have time for and spend hours creating pretty things.

In my fantasy life... I would have a beautiful garden with endless flowers of all colors, a butterfly enclosure, and fresh vegetables growing in abundance enough to share.

In my fantasy life... I would have magical powers that would enable me to help others, to alleviate their suffering.

In my fantasy life... I would have all the money required to meet our needs and allow for travel and adventures, and enough extra to help others.

In my fantasy life... there would be no tiredness or sickness or pain.  Anxiety, stress and fear would not exist.

In my fantasy life... God and I would have regular conversations by email and text and phone.

In my fantasy life... when it came my time to depart this world, Papa Bear and I would leave together, hand-in-hand, and smiling.
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Two Shoes Tuesdsay
This was written for Two Shoes Tuesday
here the theme choices this week are FANTASY and FOOL.
If you enjoy writing, come and join us!

Two Shoes Tuesday #124 - Fantasy or Fool

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

The March 31st writing themes to choose from are FANTASY and FOOL.

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Celebrate the Journey

 
The older I get, the more I've come to realize that life is all about the journey, the experiences we have, the people we encounter, and those we choose to walk with at different points along the way.  It's not an easy path, but it isn't just "one damned thing after another" either. The roads has its ups and downs, and certainly it's share of hairpin curves, but in retrospect it's an amazing adventure! 
 
I've mentioned my little piece of granite rock before, on which is written "Life is not a problem to solve, it is a mystery to experience."  It's one of the few possessions I've had with me for the past forty years.  Sometimes I forget the message.  I get so caught up in the problems and the worries and the things I think I need to fix, that I forget I am a child of the Great Fixer, and everything is in His hands.  I have no doubt He walks with me, He always has and always will. 
 
When looking for a illustration for this post, I found the quote above and loved it. So true!  Take a few moments to make a mental list of some of the wonderful people you've met in life thus far. It's amazing how many quickly come to mind. A treasure chest of memories, learning, laughter and love! Do celebrate your journey, celebrate each birthday and embrace each new chapter.  Remember always that the road you are on will eventually lead you Home.
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I'm linking up with Patricia's blog hop
In Other Words
 where the creative writing prompt this week is the following quotation:
 
"Stop worrying about the potholes in the
road and celebrate the journey"
- Barbara Hoffman
 

Larger Than Life

 
I can't remember the first time I heard of him.  A private investigator with no hands, everyone in the city knew his name.  A recent newspaper article talked about his famous cases and the endless hours dedicated to his highly successful career.  It mention his appearance on Hawaii 5-0, his compounds of exotic animals, and his ultra-high-tech office.  Buried amidst the accolades was one sentence noting that he spent no time with his family, being so involved with his career.  While clearly a legend, in my eyes he is no hero.  He forgot that family comes first.  Knowing one of his children, I see what damage has been done. 

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This piece was written as an entry for Ivy's Contest where the challenge is to choose one of the  given starter sentences and add seven more of your own totaling 100 words or less, not counting the initial sentence.  The deadline for submissions is April 1st, and the prize is AWESOME... an 8 x10 print of any photo on Richard Hoebel's Photography blog.  His work is amazing!!

Two Shoes Tuesday Prompts for March 31st

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
 
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.
 
The March 31st writing themes to choose from are:

FANTASY and FOOL

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Two Shoes Tuesday #123 - OFFER or OUT

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

The March 24th writing themes to choose from are OFFER and OUT.

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

The Great A to Z Theme Reveal - March 23, 2015

Are you participating in the amazing A to Z Challenge this year?  It begins on Wednesday, April 1st, and it's not too late to sign up if you haven't already done so!  You'll find the link to the sign-up page on the top of my sidebar.  I've participated in the A to Z three years now, and find it to be quite an adventure.  Such a great way to get back into the habit of daily posting, and a wonderful way to make some amazing new friends!

Today I'm joining in the Theme Reveal link-up along with the many A to Z participants who have opted to use a theme for their posts during the Challenge.  This gives us and opportunity to check out some of the other bloggers who will be participating and see what they intend to write about.

So far 2015 has proven to be somewhat challenging for me, so I've decided to go with a theme that will provide me, and hopefully others who drop by, with some reasons to feel good...
Each day in April I'll be sharing a short list of things corresponding to the alphabet letter of the day that encourage and uplift me, the little things that make smile.  I hope you'll join me, and maybe add some of your own in the comments each day! 
Those of you who participate in my Two Shoes Tuesday writing prompt during April will be able to choose the A-Z letter assigned to each Tuesday as one of your theme options that week.
Two Shoes Tuesdsay
I'm really looking forward to blogging A to Z with you in April!  Leave a comment if you stop by so that I can drop over for a visit at your blog too! 

Two Shoes Tuesday Prompts for March 24th

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
 
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.
 
The March 24th writing themes to choose from are:

OFFER and OUT

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Perfectly Imperfect


I am uncomfortable around perfect people (or those who believe that they are).  Sometimes their halos seem to fit a bit on the tight side, affecting their ability to perceive things clearly.  Nothing is more tiring than being around someone who feels superior, has all the right answers, and thinks they do everything the right way... as opposed to others of course, and they are usually quick to point this out.  That "air of superiority" is often more like noxious gas.  I don't abide people like that for long... the "holy ones" who feel that all the rest of us pathetic creatures are somewhat beneath them.  Not surprisingly, some of the people I've been able to communicate with most openly and befriend on a deeper level were far from perfect, in fact they were on the other end of the spectrum - about as screwed up as me in their own ways, just sometimes in a more visible manner.  I don't seek perfect people to be friends with, I seek people who are real... open, honest, and refreshingly human in their thoughts, emotions, and actions.  You don't have to be anything like me to be my friend, you just have to be true to yourself, and willing to embrace your own imperfection.  I do not strive for perfection, I strive to be good and kind.  If you are headed in that direction, there is no doubt we can be good friends.
 
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I'm linking up with Patricia's blog hop In Other Words
 where the creative writing prompt this week is the following quotation:
 
"All have their frailties and whoever looks for a friend
without imperfections will never find what he seeks."
-Cyrus the Great

Little Love Notes

 
This year has started out a little rough/frustrating/overwhelming.  I've come home from work most nights feeling exhausted and far too brain dead to attempt connecting with friends or family be it via texting, social media or phone calls.  When you're weary it's easy to get depressed, and when I do I tend to isolate.  Then I start feeling very all alone in the world, and I forget how many people care about me and are important to me.   

Another Saturday of putting in extra hours at the office playing catch-up left me in the above state of mind, and feeling very disconnected from everyone.  I thought about something that had happened that week.  One of my fellow bloggers said "I love you" in their comment on one of my posts.  It was unexpected and felt like a warm fuzzy on the cold, dreary day that it appeared.  I thought about how many people I truly care about, and then I asked myself... do they know that?  In many cases, probably not.

I made a list of all the people in my life that matter to me.  I started with family, and then began to add the friends I know personally and online.  I scrolled down my blogroll and the list of my Facebook friends and realized that the great majority of people shown there are people that I know on some level and that truly matter to me.  Yet beyond a quick comment or hitting the "like" button on photos, quotes and statuses, I really haven't shared much on a personal level, largely due to lack of time and energy... and the tendency to hold back to prevent becoming drained... or hurt.

I am a strong believer in the importance of telling people that you love them now - in the moment - since life can change in the blink of an eye, and there may never be an opportunity.  I've decided it's time to put that belief into practice.  While it's true that I don't have a lot of time or energy left at the end of the day, I have a little.  So from now on I am going to dedicate a few minutes each day to working my way down that list I made and sending out a few little love notes, by text or message or email, or maybe even a real snail mail now and then.  I'm going to check them off to make sure no one gets left out over time, and when I've shared a little love with everyone on the list, I'm going to do it all over again!

We live in a very busy world, I am always coming and going and mostly spinning my wheels. As part of my intent to slow things down internally a bit, I am going to begin to make time for the people in my life that make my life worthwhile.  Little love notes... that's something any of us can do, even if you can only manage one a day - that's one person you made smile and feel loved!
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Two Shoes Tuesdsay
This was written for Two Shoes Tuesday
here the theme choices this week are leaf and little.
If you enjoy writing, come and join us!

Two Shoes Tuesday #122 - Leaf or Little

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

The March 10th writing themes to choose from are LEAF and LITTLE.

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Two Shoes Tuesday Prompts for March 17th

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
 
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.
 
The March 17th writing themes to choose from are:

LEAF and LITTLE

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Not Normal, Not OK


After living in a psychologically abusive relationship for more than a decade, I had lost my sense of what was "normal".  I had forgotten how other people lived and what other relationships were like.  I had forgotten sharing, trust, security, freedom of choice, peace, laughter, joy. Most of all I had forgotten hope. Life was a day in day out existence of holding things in, hiding the confusion and  pain while pretending on the outside that everything was ok. 
 
But it wasn't ok, it was far from it, and it wasn't normal either.  It took a friend to point that out, to bring that message home to me.  I remember the conversation still.  "You've forgotten what a normal life is like, you've lived like this for so long you've forgotten that other people don't live this way - they don't live in sadness and fear." 
 
That message broke my heart.  I wanted him to be wrong, but deep down I knew he wasn't.  What had happened to the girl that had once been independent and strong?  I'd lost her somewhere along the way.
 
Change didn't happen that day, but it was an awakening - the beginning of the realization that other people didn't live this way, and that I really didn't want to either.  I wanted to return to the land of the living.  I didn't have any idea how I was going to make that happen, and it took a good deal longer to finally walk out the door and begin a new life on my own.  It wasn't easy; in fact it was really, really hard.  But, with God's help I did it, and I can't begin to tell you how blessed I feel with the life Papa Bear and I have together now.
 
These are some of the warning signs of an emotionally abusive relationship.  If you are living a life that is not ok, not normal in the healthy sense of things, you can break free from it.  If I did it, you can too!
 
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Two Shoes Tuesdsay
This was written for Two Shoes Tuesday
where the theme choices this week are normal and name.
If you enjoy writing, come and join us!

Two Shoes Tuesday #121 - Normal or Name

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

The March 10th writing themes to choose from are NORMAL and NAME.

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Listen to Your Cat

 
Cats are masters at conveying their thoughts and feelings without the benefit of human language skills.  If they are unhappy with you or feel you are laughing at them, they will show their displeasure by turning their back to you,  and if you do something they don't like (such as cleaning the corner's of Sophie's eyes), they will jump off your lap and glare at you from another cushion of the sofa.  They have internal clocks, and know just when to start those telepathic stares so that you will soon feel the heat and get up to fill the food dishes.  If Toby wants to play fetch with one of his beloved plastic spoons, he will drop it unceremoniously at my feet and then wait for me to take notice.  The most obvious communication though, is when they feel you are ignoring or neglecting them - they will park themselves right on top of the distracting object like a newspaper, book, or knitting project, and most definitely on a keyboard just like the cat above.  Sophie has even been known to reach over and wrap her paws around her Daddy's arm if he is reading the paper or his phone and she isn't getting the continuous petting she expects at the ruling queen in residence.  Do our cats speak to us? Most definitely, they just use their own form of language that we soon come to understand if we love them. Maybe we could learn something from their behavior... if you desire something or feel you are being neglected, you just need to let that significant person in your life know - even if it means blocking their phone screen or monitor screen to get their attention... I wouldn't recommend sitting on their keyboard though! :-)
 
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I'm linking up with Patricia's blog hop In Other Words
 where the current creative writing prompt is the following quotation:
 
"Lots of people talk to animals. Not many listen, though. That's the problem." 
- Benjamin Hoff

Two Shoes Tuesday Prompts for March 10th


Two Shoes Tuesdsay
 
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.
 
The March 10th writing themes to choose from are:

NAME and NORMAL

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!

Two Shoes Tuesday #120 - Ocean or Order

Two Shoes Tuesdsay
Welcome to Two Shoes Tuesday...  a place for those who love to write!

There are two word prompts to choose from... you can use whichever one inspires you. You are not required to include them both. You do not have to include the prompt word, but please use it as the theme for your post. You are welcome to write a post for each prompt word, if you like. Posts unrelated to either word prompt will be deleted from the link list.

Your contribution must be in the form of an original poem, essay, or short story (fiction or non-fiction), and it must be a new piece - not something drawn from your other writings or archives.

Your link must go directly to your post for Two Shoes Tuesday, and somewhere in the post you must provide a link to Two Shoes Tuesday.  It doesn't need to be big or fancy, just a text or logo link at the end of your post will be fine. You can add a link anytime through next Monday. 

Please take some time to visit as many of the other TST participants as possible during the week, we all love feedback on our efforts!  Feel free to email me at jts.2000@yahoo.com if you have any questions.
The March 3rd writing themes to choose from are OCEAN and ORDER.

Please remember that the THEME of your post must be related to the prompt
 you choose, rather than it just appearing as a word somewhere in your post!