Often the only place Wynn found comfort and understanding was in emails exchanged with a handful of Internet friends. "Why are you putting up with this, why are you still there?" they said. Wynn didn't really know how to answer. She was trying so hard to believe that things would get better if she just did everything right. That was until the day he shoved her, hard, and she almost fell. Things had been escalating, with him screaming, yelling, smashing things. Wynn knew that he was using drugs much more powerful than what he admitted to, his erratic behavior proved it. She also knew that if she didn't do something it was going to go to get worse, and she was going to get hurt. She knew in her heart that it was time to draw the line, and she began making a plan to leave.
Leaving him was the hardest thing Wynn had ever done. She'd been married to him for thirteen years and had given up so much of herself to please him that she didn't even know who she was without him anymore. She didn't even know what she liked to eat or what her favorite color was. Out on her own, she struggled to put the broken pieces of her life back together, and she cried herself to sleep every night for nearly a year. The pain and sorrow ran so deep that she found herself hanging on to life by just a thread. Truly, the only thing that kept Wynn alive and gave her the courage to go on, was that little handful of Internet friends who read the words she poured out on her blog, and responded with incredible patience, compassion, encouragement, and love - telling her over and over that things were going to get better. She wanted to believe that, she clung to that hope, and bit by bit she began to believe... and the circle of her Internet friends and family grew.
One year after leaving that dark and painful relationship, God brought a wonderful man into Wynn's life through an online dating site. Wynn learned that God uses many means to reach and bless us, even things like the Internet.
Five months later, Wynn left her job of nineteen years, and the city she had lived in for the past twenty, and moved to Texas to embark on an amazing new life filled with love and laughter. And the strangest thing happened... as Wynn's life began to blossom, her heart began open too. She began to open up to more people through her blog, and in a few years time she found herself surrounded by an amazing group of friends who truly cared about each other and shared the ups and downs of their lives. The love and encouragement they exchanged on a daily basis was more beautiful and than anything she had previously known!
Now days Wynn often feels her heart overflowing with gratefulness and joy... such extraordinary joy, unlike anything she ever believed was even possible. And the best part... as each person in that circle continues to reach out to others with their words of encouragement, compassion and love, the joy continues to grow. Wynn has learned the power of sharing your life with the right people, and she knows that some of the very best folks around can be found right here!
This was written for the 99th Edition of Two Shoes Tuesday
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