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Extraordinary Joy

Not so many years ago Wynn led a very lonely life.  She went to work and she came home, she didn't really do much talking at either place; she kept to herself.  Some days she didn't say more than a few sentences the whole day long, just whatever was needed to get by in the office or with her husband at home.  She was extra quiet when she was home, it was better that way - safer.  The less said, the less likely she would upset him and incite his anger. 

Often the only place Wynn found comfort and understanding was in emails exchanged with a handful of Internet friends.  "Why are you putting up with this, why are you still there?" they said. Wynn didn't really know how to answer.  She was trying so hard to believe that things would get better if she just did everything right.  That was until the day he shoved her, hard, and she almost fell. Things had been escalating, with him screaming, yelling, smashing things.  Wynn knew that he was using drugs much more powerful than what he admitted to, his erratic behavior proved it.  She also knew that if she didn't do something it was going to go to get worse, and she was going to get hurt. She knew in her heart that it was time to draw the line, and she began making a plan to leave.

Leaving him was the hardest thing Wynn had ever done.  She'd been married to him for thirteen years and had given up so much of herself to please him that she didn't even know who she was without him anymore.  She didn't even know what she liked to eat or what her favorite color was.  Out on her own, she struggled to put the broken pieces of her life back together, and she cried herself to sleep every night for nearly a year.  The pain and sorrow ran so deep that she found herself hanging on to life by just a thread.  Truly, the only thing that kept Wynn alive and gave her the courage to go on, was that little handful of Internet friends who read the words she poured out on her blog, and responded with incredible patience, compassion, encouragement, and love - telling her over and over that things were going to get better.  She wanted to believe that, she clung to that hope, and bit by bit she began to believe... and the circle of her Internet friends and family grew.

One year after leaving that dark and painful relationship, God brought a wonderful man into Wynn's life through an online dating site.  Wynn learned that God uses many means to reach and bless us, even things like the Internet. 

Five months later, Wynn left her job of nineteen years, and the city she had lived in for the past twenty, and moved to Texas to embark on an amazing new life filled with love and laughter.  And the strangest thing happened... as Wynn's life began to blossom, her heart began open too.  She began to open up to more people through her blog, and in a few years time she found herself surrounded by an amazing group of friends who truly cared about each other and shared the ups and downs of their lives.  The love and encouragement they exchanged on a daily basis was more beautiful and than anything she had previously known! 

Now days Wynn often feels her heart overflowing with gratefulness and joy... such extraordinary joy, unlike anything she ever believed was even possible.  And the best part... as each person in that circle continues to reach out to others with their words of encouragement, compassion and love, the joy continues to grow.  Wynn has learned the power of sharing your life with the right people, and she knows that some of the very best folks around can be found right here!
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This was written for the 99th Edition of  Two Shoes Tuesday
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16 comments:

  1. Congratulations on finding and being you!

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    1. Thanks Sarah! And you know, I decided after all these years that I kind of like me and who I am! All that bad stuff I was told about me... well, it wasn't really about me at all! :-)

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    1. One of my several nicknames, Ms. G! :-) It is meeting you and all the awesome folks who share here that makes my life not only survivable but wonderful! A hundred reasons to smile!!

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    1. Yes I think you just might be acquainted :-)

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  4. Thank you for sharing a story of Wynn's journey rrom 'sorrow' to 'joy'.
    -- I'm wondering if 'Wynn' is pronounced as 'win". :-)

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    1. Yes, Ma'am it is pronounced that way. It is wonderful to tell a story with such a happy ending, and even more fun when it's a true story!

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  5. Wynn was fortunate, she never gave up hope that things would be better. How many others get trapped and abused and suffer in relationships that do them harm. Let's hope they can say "Enough" and break free.

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    1. Many times she nearly did give up, Old Egg, and sometimes she thought that dying might be better, but deep inside I think we are born with a strong survivor instinct that makes us want to fight back from that place, to overcome all odds and survive. I am a survivor and a proud one, but I am more than that. I am not tied to the past, I live in the present. I have been so very blessed with Papa Bear and the life that I am living now, and I believe the future can be good!

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  6. Josie. Isn't it wonderful how the connection of Internet friends can be so caring and so important in your life? You certainly have a bright and happy life with Papa Bear now and I suspect because the dark was SO dark, the light is SO bright.

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    1. Yes, it is truly wonderful, Val... such an amazing blessing. People often complain about Internet and social media use, but I can testify that it can also be used for the very best thing... caring relationships! I agree with you that I treasure the amazing brightness of my life now, because I have seen how dark the darkness can be!

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  7. I so identify as you know. I only wish more women could find their way to joy. Something to pray for and work toward. You are a dear friend to me now. I have loved this hop from day one, even though I know I made a few bloppers along the way. You have been so supportive. I wish we could be more than virtual friends. ;)

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    1. Thank you for such kind words, Mary! Your posts always inspire me and encourage me in my faith. To me, virtual friends are every bit real, we share more of ourselves here than we do with neighbors or coworkers or sometimes even family members. I do wish you lived closer, we could surely limp down that trail in the woods together, it would make a cute pair! :-)

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  8. Sorrow and joy. I think we cannot truly know joy until we have known sorrow. At least that's the way it has been for me. As always you shared your heart beautifully.

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    1. Thank you Patricia. I absolutely agree with you that we understand and appreciate blessings and joy far better for having struggled with the sorrowful side of life. Had I met John 40 years ago, I would not have known to value the kind of man he is, nor would I have known what it takes to make a relationship work. He would say the same is true for him. I find myself loving this age in life, not for the physical issues that complicate it, but for the bit of attained wisdom and grace, and the ability to let the little things go without ruffling my feathers. Even on very high-pressure days at work, I can end the day smiling and singing to myself on the way home. God is good, life is good, all is well!

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