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Getting A Handle On Life

How do you approach life? Are you worried about what tomorrow might bring?  Do you fear that the worst is sure to come and you are ill-prepared to deal with it?  I  used to live that way, waiting for the bottom to drop out to reveal an even deeper hole than I was in before.  Life was dark and scary and I was constantly on guard against approaching evil and impending doom.  Sadly, I was often right... life just kept getting worse, no matter how hard I tried to stay one step ahead of it.
 
The time came when I had to take a hard look at my life and what it was doing to me. When you reach the point where you'd rather be dead than alive, it's time to make some changes; changes that were long overdue. It was way past time to walk away from the situation I was living in, and the person I was living with.  I had to find the courage to move out on my own. 
 
I knew I didn't have that much courage.  I'd been broken down too far to believe I was capable of handling anything anymore.  So I only had one option, that was to rely on trust.  I had to be willing to take my hand off the handle and to relinquish control... to Let Go and Let God.  The only thing I had to rely on was faith, the belief that God wanted a better life for me than what I was living, and that He was somehow going to help me get there.
 
It wasn't easy, it wasn't something that happened overnight and the next day everything was sunny and fine.  It was a long road, a hard road, and often a scary road.  There was times I wanted to just give up and return to what I knew no matter how bad it was, but I didn't... because I knew if I kept living that way I was going to end up dead, either by his hand or by mine.
 
So I clung to faith.  FAITH was my handle on life, the way I got thru each day ONE DAY AT A TIME, and I clung to the people who stood by me and encouraged me, and talked me down from the ledge of fear, and somehow I did get thru it.  
 
It took about a year for me to pick up the pieces of my life and begin reassembling them into something that was actually me... not what someone else tried to make me or take away from me.  Eventually I did come out on the other side, stronger, wiser, and far more faithful than I'd ever been before. 
 
Most of you know how far my life has come in the last five years.  You can read about it in many of my blog posts. I don't cling to the handle of anxiety and fear anymore.  I know if God saw me thru those times, He can and will see me thru anything.  No matter what life brings, I'm going to hold tight to the handle of faith and I'll be ok.
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I'm linking up with Brenda Youngerman's Pondering With A Purpose
where this week's writing prompt is "handle"

14 comments:

  1. And, I am guessing, finding Papa Bear!

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    1. Papa Bear was God's gift to me, Joe. He reflects the changes I made in my life and the direction I wanted to go. Papa Bear is my rock, he is amazing!

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  2. love that image "handle of faith". can't think of anything better to get a grip on.

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    1. That's definitely true, Rory. Faith is the one thing we can hold on tight to with no fear that it is ever going to take us on a wrong turn or slip away.

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  3. what a great response to this prompt!
    I a so glad you made the 'leap;

    Thanks for pondering with me

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    1. Thank you Brenda! Your prompt inspired me, I like to be in control so the concept of having a handle on things was a good one! The trick of course is knowing when it's time to let go!

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  4. Let Go and Let God - I just learned that not to long ago. My biggest problem was, I'd let go and then take it right back. As if He wasn't able to handle it. I am a control freak but I'm so much better now that I've handed things over to Him.

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    1. I've always been a control freak too, Elsie, and it takes a great deal of trust to let go of that and let God lead the way. I've learned that every time I relinquish control things turn out so much better than I could have done it myself, and with much less stress and frustration for everyone involved! Letting Go is important in relationships too, I had to learn all over again how to trust when I entered my relationship with Papa Bear, and I know you've had to work hard to rebuild yours. But it is so worth it!!

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  5. I've not read very far into your past, but I understand being at rock bottom. Been there and came back as you did. We're survivors and that's a wonderful thing.

    Have a terrific day and weekend my friend. Big hugs. :)

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    1. Surviving... and now thriving... is indeed wonderful Sandee. I know that God saved the very best for last in my life... when I would most appreciate and treasure it. I love survivors, it makes life sweet, remembering how far you've come!

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  6. If it weren't for my faith in God, I would not be here today. I am very thankful that he is my rock!

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    1. That is so very true of me as well Kristi, we have to know where our strength comes from in the really hard times, where to turn when everything seems to go wrong. God is the rock, love is the way! I have every confidence you will soon find yourself in a place that is so much brighter than what you had before, you'll see! :-)

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  7. I am so very glad your faith got you through it and continues to guide you on your journey, wow, it could not have been easy.
    Lucy from Lucy's Reality

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    1. It wasn't easy, Lucy, but as it is with many situations that we face in life, much of it was of my own making... or I should say of my poor decision making. Older and a little bit wiser now, lessons learned! :-)

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