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This Thing Called Prayer


I don't know what prayer is exactly, or how it works.  What I do know is that it does work. 

Last Thursday I finally felt like I was making headway on the backlog of paperwork to be scanned and attached at the law office where I work.  I arrived at work Friday morning in brighter spirits than usual, anticipating a productive day, since Friday is most often fairly quiet and good time to play catch up. 

Shortly after I got here, one of my attorney/supervisors helped me rearrange my office to better accommodated the copier/scanner so that I wasn't continually running around the desk to scan just as the phone would ring - and back around I'd go again to answer it and refer to the client's file online. 

We shut down the computer and moved the desk and equipment, then reconnected everything carefully.  When I rebooted my computer it began to initialize, then froze at a black screen looking for a boot disk in the drive.  It was impossible to go further, the message just repeated.  We shut it down and tried again. No luck.  We rebooted the main server and tried once more, still no luck.  My supervisor called our IT person at our home office and he confirmed what we suspected, the hard drive had gone bad and there was little that could be done except to replace it.  Not as simple as it sounds, since our company orders its computers online, and there is a wait of several days for them to arrive and be set up. 

The problem is that, being a "paperless" office, there is almost nothing that can be done without the computer and access to our network.  I can't even answer a telephone and look up the client's file to provide information to the client or to Social Security.  All the plans for catching up evaporated, and I spent the afternoon doing what little I could to assist others, and borrowing other folk's computers when they were away from their desks briefly to accomplish critical tasks like processing outgoing mail.  I couldn't even print envelopes and had to have our case manager do that.  Needless to say, they weren't particularly thrilled with the extra duties either, having plenty of their own work to do.

I went home Friday night with a heavy heart, knowing that this week was going to be a nightmare, and not at all sure about what I was going to do except stand around and look frustrated.  I envisioned paperwork stacking high, and disgruntled coworkers as the week wore on.  I dreaded today more than I have dreaded any day of work at this job so far.  I tried to put it out of my mind over the long holiday weekend, but it was always there, lurking in the background, raining on my parade.

I woke up early this morning, at 5 AM to be exact, and wasn't able to get back to sleep for the extra hour I would have liked.  My brain was already stewing on the problem at work, and how we were going to handle the busy incoming phone calls when everyone had appointments scheduled and would need their computers for those.  I did what I always do in situations where I feel powerless, I prayed.  And every time anxiety tried to worm its way into my head as I got ready and drove the 20 miles into town, I prayed.  I still felt totally down as I dragged myself across the parking lot and into the building.  This was going to be a miserable long day.

Unlocking the office doors, since I am always the first to arrive, I put my things away, settled in, and decided on a whim to flip the computer on, just in case, but not expecting anything different to happen than did last Friday. Much to my amazement it came to life and booted up correctly, allowing me full access to the network and files!  I sat there staring, then smiling, a peaceful feeling settling over me.

I prayed and God took care of it, why do I always doubt? I didn't pray for God to "fix it".  I rarely pray like that.  I pray for God to help me with my attitude, to help direct me in the way to handle things, and to accept His will for my life and the lives of anyone else I'm praying for.  I believe that God always answers our prayers, not always in our time frame, and not always in the ways we expect or want, but in the time and ways that are best for us.  Sometimes the answer is no, and sometimes the answer comes as a total surprise, like this morning.  How simple... how beautiful... the broken computer is working just fine now!  

There was a dark period in my life where I didn't believe in God or in the power of prayer. I was hurt, angry, and very bitter.  I didn't understand that God was looking out for me and had a far better plan than any I could imagine.  I read once that God answers desperate prayer.  For me that means when I reach the point where I realize I am powerless to fix a situation, when I give up, God steps in.  I knew there was nothing I could do about the computer, other than find a way to deal with the situation without loosing my cool.  God, once again, had a better plan - He fixed it! Yes, I believe that! 

I believe God once fixed my arm when it was broken too... so does my husband.  Even the nurses at the emergency room, and the tech who was preparing to take the x-rays believed that it was broken, you could visibly see the misaligned bone protruding in a bump. It hurt like crazy.  But then, as both my husband and I prayed about it, it wasn't broken, and it no longer looked like it had initially.  Another mini-miracle, this I believe.

Prayer has the power to change things. Prayer has the power to change people, it has the power to change lives. There are mini-miracles happening all around us everyday, and sometimes some really big ones too! Never doubt the power of God to move mountains... to heal broken bones... or even to repair computers.  God is love, and we are loved in manner far beyond our ability to comprehend. 

It's turning out to be a good day after all! :-)

18 comments:

  1. Yes I pray everytime I apply for another job...God's will be done! Glad it worked out for ya!

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    1. You have the right attitude to lead you just the right job, Kristi! i hope the answer comes soon for you, I know the waiting and wondering is stressful! I was much relieved about the computer too. One less hassle to deal with.

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  2. I pray the same way you do. I don't pray for God to "fix" things, just to provide me the strength to make it through, to lay His hand upon me, my family or friends and provide us with serenity.

    I'm so glad everything turned out well for you!!

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    1. I think too often people mistake prayer for a "magic wand" Elsie... "do this", "fix this", "stop this". I don't believe it works like that. It's about accepting and finding the grace to deal with the situations life presents you, and about accepting that sometimes we won't understand the why or why not.

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  3. I love this post. I am a firm believer in prayer, and have seen the power of it in my own life. I am trying to move away from the 'formal' idea of prayer and more toward 'pray without ceasing' and what that would look like daily. So awesome to hear stories of God moving. We need more of it!

    I had a particularly rough day this past Thursday, and sensed God calling me to go pray/praise/worship with what little breath I did have (been experiencing shortness of breath lately among other things)...so I went to my actual hammock and did just that. His presence and peace filled me like nothing else, and gave me a calm to look to Him in all things. Incredible.

    Since I know you pray, I would appreciate one sent my way for tomorrow morning - I return to a doctor for test results. He is completely in control so I am not worried. He is already there.

    So glad your day (and job) worked out from all the frustration to complete peace!

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    1. I'm totally in agreeance with you on an attitude of "praying without ceasing" Carrie, and that's the way I approach things too. I see endless opportunities to pray, not only for my life and loved ones, but for folks like the ones in the car accident I pass on the way to work, or the farmer out working in his field hoping to grow enough to earn money to feed his family, or the cleaning lady in our building who looks so tired. When we focus on others, our problems tend to "mysteriously" (or not so mysteriously)fall into place! :-) Most of my frustration in life is self-induced, I have a hard time letting go!

      You will definitely be in my prayers until we hear from you again on test results. Praying that all will go well!

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  4. What a great, inspiring post. I agree, and I believe.
    Thank you for sharing and reminding us of such an important aspect of life. Too often we neglect to communicate through prayers...and it leads to negativity. You reminded us of a positive power available: prayer.

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    1. I know you are a believer, Annie! We've both come too far and thru too much in life to deny that there is a Greater Power watching out for us, and I know that prayers are going to get us thru any speedbumps ahead on the road of life too! Prayer is about faith and hope. Hope... my favorite word! :-)

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  5. I don't know what to say. Your post is something special and I feel like a comment can't quite come up to it. However, it was GOOD to read, and this concept of not praying for what you want, but praying for God to guide you in whichever way He sees fit is of the highest.

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    1. Thank you Lady in Red. It's taken me a lot of years to realize the power that is mobilized in prayer. It is not about what we can do or can't do, it's about having a willing heart.

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  6. What a great post. I too believe in the power of prayer. When I ask and let go of the outcome, I find that miracles happen in my life. Not how I expect them to be, or when I expect them, but better. In fact, I wrote a blog about all the miracles happening in my life recently. Life is so great if I can just let go of 'controlling' everything. Your post was a lovely inspiration - I am a new follower :)

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    1. Hello Claire, welcome to my blog! Thank you for your kind commment. As you note, the hardest thing is learning to let go of control. The more we do, the better things work out for us. :-)

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  7. I believe in prayer. I've seen it work. It's not like asking for three wishes or anything like that, what it does seem to do is provide clarity and focus, which then allows us to deal with situations the best way we can. I'm not a particularly religious person but I do believe in the power of prayer!

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    1. Exactly Selma! I wouldn't call myself religious either, I would call myself faithful and spiritual. Prayer is a gift of the spirit, and it is a beautiful thing! You are right that through it we find clarity and direction. Prayer helps me keep my heart and mind in the right place... when I remember to use it!

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  8. I agree, it is all about remembering to use prayer. I often forget to use it for the small things, but those small things are like having a stone in your shoe, they wear you down.

    great post!

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    1. That's so true, Lena! We turn to prayer for the big issues in our lives but forget that prayer can help keep us on the right track all day long. It's a new way of looking at it and I'm learning it works wonders,not only in my life, but in my attitude as well!

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  9. What a wonderful post Josie, a real and honest testament to the power of prayer.
    I'm going to share this on my Facebook page because it reiterates what we learnt at church this morning.
    So glad I found your blog, I have a feeling God might just have planned it this way! x

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    1. I not only believe in the power of prayer, Sarah, I also believe that God does indeed connect us with the people and lessons we need in life at just the right moment, it's happened to me more times than I can count. Someone will say just what I needed to hear, or a new person or new opportunity will pop into my life. I know I can count on God being there for me, my prayers are always answered, even if not always in the way I anticipate! :-)

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