No More Talk of Darkness
Each week Carry on Tuesday publishes a famous quotation or the opening lines of a book, song or poem and invites writers to Carry On where words stop. This week's prompt is..."No more talk of darkness, forget these wide eyed fears." Here is my contribution...
"There will be no more talk of darkness" she admonish her daughter in response to the sobbing voice on the phone. "I don't want to hear anymore of you telling me what a loser you are, how ugly, how stupid, and how no one could ever or will ever want you because of the issues you deal with in your life."
"You need to understand that it wasn't all your fault. Such things never are. He wasn't a saint, he was just a man, with his own weaknesses and imperfections like we all have. No one is ever 100% at fault in a divorce. It's a shared failure. Sometimes one person cannot be enough, change enough to be all the other wants or thinks they need. Sometimes it's wrong to try. Sometimes people will leave regardless."
"It's been almost a year now, it's time to let go of the past and shut the door. It is over and done with. There is no undo button in life no matter how much we long for one. You can't spend the rest of your life in mourning what's been lost, you can't waste another day of your life looking back with regret. It is time to abandon the heavy blanket of despair you've been cocooned in."
"You need to live day by day in the present. Just getting thru one day at a time is challenge enough. Start taking notice of the little good things that do happen instead of wallowing in all the darkness and pain. Reach out and people will respond to you. A new life isn't going to come knocking on your door."
"Things aren't really getting worse in your life, you are just at a standstill... you can't go back and you're afraid to go forward. Yes, bad things, hard things to deal with, could happen down the road to you, or to any of us. You will find the strength and the direction to get thru them. Forget those wide-eyed fears. You can't fill your mind with what-ifs. Life never works out the way we plan or the way we fear. It is a mystery to experience, a journey of faith. It will be ok."
"You will not be alone forever, and you will not have to settle for someone so much less than what you believe he was. There is someone for everyone, someone good and decent, loving and caring, intelligent and responsible, someone who will be there for you thru good times and bad. Look at me and my life, who would have thought I would find someone to love me? The odds were certainly against it and yet I did, it was meant to be. There is someone meant for you in this stage of your life and you will find each other."
"You say you will never be happy again. We've all felt that way at times, the hopelessness and despair, and the depression they breed. But life cycles dear daughter, tough times don't last forever. There will come a day when you will laugh again and love again, and look back on these times as a reminder of just how good you have it compared to how it used to be. You will appreciate the new person in your life more than you ever did before, and you will cherish every moment that you have together. Trust me, I'm your mother, I know these things."
They talk on for an hour in the darkness of night, the daughter doubting and desperate for a strand of hope to cling to, the mother encouraging. When they are both exhausted from the outpouring of emotions, they say goodnight and end the conversation on a lighter, peaceful note, exchanging expressions of love for each other.
The mother crawls wearily into bed and snuggles into the arms of the man who loves her, and she knows that what she says is true... love will come again for her daughter, her life will move out of the darkness into the light.