Today's the day we leave on our trip to east Texas! In just a few more hours we'll both be off work and on the road. It's hard to say which of us is more excited, we both are! In just three more days we'll be getting married. WOW! It seems like we've been waiting such a long time to get to this point. It feels like we've already known each other forever, maybe on a spiritual plane we have.
Many years ago my mother once visited a fortune teller. One of the things she asked was if I would ever be happy. The fortune teller told her that I would, but not in a way that she (my mother) would understand. That prediction has remained in the back of my mind for years. Maybe at long last it is making sense. While there have been moments and periods of happiness in my life, they have been short-lived and overshadowed by times of great darkness and struggle. Those brief periods of happiness felt nothing like this. This is the real thing... a sense of contentment with life, and with the love of my life, that transcends the daily ups and downs. The joy of laughter shared, the warmth of closeness desired, someone to talk to and listen to and share with... someone who truly cares. My mother didn't have this kind of marriage, her life wasn't very happy, so maybe she wouldn't truly understand the sense of peace and belonging I have now, but I'm certain that she is also smiling down from heaven as at long last she sees my life going in a positive direction and that I am no longer struggling on my own.
I have no doubts about marrying John, not one, nor about my future with him. Our meeting was part of God's plan, we are right for each other and we belong together. As the saying goes... "No Fear", just total awe, total joy, and an overwhelming sense of gratefulness for how God has blessed me!
Our laptops are packed, and we'll be checking in from the road. Thank you all for your wonderful words of support. I appreciate you more than you know!